Nov 13, 2016

Somehow I just wanna know the real story of myself. I mean what will happen next? Why this happened to me and bla bla shit. Yeah everyone wants to know. Right? Since we ever met, I don't even know why and why Allah gave me, I mean us.. Dugaan seberat mcm ni. I saw everyone were happy with their own partner and WHY THE FUCK ARE WE LIKE THIS? ok this is too rude faroh. Neh, sometimes I just want to get over of this shit, taknak ada pape pun and just forget and let it go. Kau dengan hal kau and aku dengan hal aku. But then, NO WAY IT WILL NEVER BE HAPPEN LAH KOT. 

Is this what we called jodoh? Like... Em gaduh 24/7 but tak pernah putus I mean tak pernah pergi from my life. WHY IS IT SO HARD TO US? Yeah I think he felt the same thing as me.  NI JODOH KE? *hantuk kepala kt laptop* 

okok I know you all mesti like *what happened to you all bla bla....

WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 2 YEARS PLUS BUT MORE GADUH THAN HAPPY HAHAHA (Yes I'm too used with this shit till I can just laugh like dat) Well continue, I really love him but somehow dia mmg menyakitkan hati. WHY? Sebab dia tak matang and ego and degil bla bla bla fuck! OK sorry. Awal bercinta yes rasa dia lah paling sempurna, bertuahnya aku bla bla. BAM! start lah dugaan. Start from bila kitaorg kena santau by someone and then gaduh bcs of my mistakes. But comes to think of it, i've learnt so much from my mistakes which is good for myself. Hang pun bebal nah duk cari jantan lain pasaipa? So then masatu amek masa yg lama utk yakinkan dia. Aku pun mmg tabahkan diri jelah kena maki kena hina and all. Perempuan sial sundal murah semua tu kena. But I still want him back bcs I know my mistakes. Aku belajar sabar sikit-sikit dripada semua ni. Kalau dulu aku ni panas baran orgnya. Tak matang. Nak ngamuk je. Maybe ni balasan untuk aku. Then kami kembali seperti sedia kala ciyeh haha. Allah jela tahu mcm mana sabarnya aku tunggu saat ni. Sebab aku mmg bebetul nak tebus kesalahan aku. Then pap! Hahahahaha I just found out dia punya gambar with betina lain. Why aku panggil betina? Sebab perempuan ni mcm tak fhm bahasa. Dh tahu aku dgn si H. Eh dia letak dp FB lagi gmbo dgn H. Aku punyalah struggle stalk dia. She didn't accept my request on Instagram. I think dia tahu dia dalam bahaya hohohohoho. But still dia tk tukar gmbr. GF MANA TAK SAKIT HATI WOI! So one day ter-stalk twitter perempuan tu jumpa lah segala isi dan bukti. Ya Allah, sedih dia. But unbelievable aku tak ngamuk at all. I'm happy for myself lahthat I can reached that part. I just cried. He explained everything ok dah ok balik and all. Huh pmpuan tu dtg balik. I just hantar chat kt FB, what happened actually between them, I asked. Finally dia kata oh H yg tak hbs hbs kacau dia. Dat time mmg aku sumpah serana this 2 donkeys lah. Lahnet! So I just screenshot that conversation and sent to H. Unexpected reply lah, si H bangangkan aku. 

and then sampailah skg our relationship still tergantung mcm ni. So sad. AND WHY THE FUCKK AKU NK DIA LAGI AKU PUN TAK TAHU.

So, to guys out there. pls respect a women. Siapa pun sial mana pun dia. Nabi pesan suruh respect perempuan kan? Jgn rendahkan martabat seorang perempuan. Jangan hina dia. Sebab dunia bulat, harini dia buat salah esok-esok kau pula buat salah ygsama mcm mana dia buat. Allah maha adil. Jangan hina org lelebih. 

Untuk perempuan, jaga maruah. JAdi mahal. Sayang mana pun awak dekat someone, don't let dat dick touch ya body. 

To myself, semoga tabah. LOL. 
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I just deleted all my oldzzzzzzzzzz post. Let's restart back. No mengarut and this time I promise even to myself? LOL. 

So today is a brand new day. A fresh start. Let just replace any negativity with positivity. Think happy thoughts. Inspire yourself. Leave the past. It's not too late to be brand new.

OK FARAH ?